IDK what to do or what to say. Trying stay calm so I want go back to the hospital. I know it's hard…

IDK what to do or what to say. Trying stay calm so I want go back to the hospital. I know it's hard I lost my dad when I was 4months pregnant with major, SMH. All he keep saying is she not gone meet our son.. I wonder is this why my baby been cutting up all week trying come...lord give me strength