Waiting on my son's father to come pick me up from the hospital and he calls and say they just found his mom dead.…

Waiting on my son's father to come pick me up from the hospital and he calls and say they just found his mom dead. Lord.. Help me.. My mom is in a rehabilitation center Because she broke her leg. I'm trying stay calm before they readmit me. Why do I go through so much.. They say god give his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. But I'm tired of being strong. Shoot the 9th made 3 years since I lost my dad. Ready for this month to be over. I can't Deal