Today is such a weird day for me. If my first pregnancy worked out, it would have been my due date.…

We had an early miscarriage but would have been due sometime around now too. I don't know how I should feel honestly, if that makes sense. We are now due in September which we thought was God working in a beautiful way as initially our first was conceived in September.

@heilwife317, yeah it’s such a weird feeling. I think I did all my grieving when it happened, and I’m at peace with the way things happened. I’m sure it helped that we ended up conceiving again. If that didn’t happen, I could see myself really feeling sorry for myself.

@penelope127 that is probably true. My cousin was due in December and miscarried but is pregnant again and she was quite outspoken about her depression and grief but then stopped posting, idk if anyone has guessed it yet but she is 9 weeks pregnant (told me as we were sharing a baby shower, she is now going to announce at my shower) but I agree I think it makes a difference when we are able to conceive again. This experience had me praying for all the negative symptoms of pregnancy just to have a baby, now I feel blessed to be downing tums every 5 seconds, still occasionally puking, and dealing with everything else because every time my little guy kicks my heart melts and I am so happy I get to have 1 of God's children! :)

I would be due next week. I was thinking about this yesterday and I almost feel guilty that I’m ok with how things are right now. It’s such an odd feeling.

@sara672014, isn’t it? I feel like I should be more sad, but I’m really at peace with things.

🙏👼👶🌈💚💚 it's definitely a crazy mix if emotions. Our first was due Feb 4th 2014 and we had found out a couple of days before that we were expecting again. Feb 4th is the day we found out our second was in my right ovary and had no heartbeat. But like you said I was at peace and I was ok. We never had a due date for our second but we became pregnant again and found out about 6 months after that loss. I also didn't have much feelings about it. But the last one! Holy moly I went through it all! I had only what I can describe as survivors remorse. I felt guilty for being alive and pregnant when our precious Blue was not. It's still a process for me. Maybe because we saw baby and heard babies heartbeat and you know our miscarriage story from Blue. Everyone and every pregnancy is grieved differently. There is no wrong or right. Just unconditional love and peace for our sweet angel babies. Sending lots of love for every mama, daddy and angel!!!