I need to vent:

I'm so angry no one wants to go to my shower like everyone is so fake toward me I'm about to disown all my "friends" and I'm angry that I can't decorate because I live in a fixer up trailer that is yet to be fixed and is hot as balls and I'm sweating 24/7 even though SO has owned it for over a fucking year now so me and baby might have to stay at a hotel when she first arrives because men love doing things last minute and I don't have the money to get all the stuff I want for lilly right now. I wanna go crazy and stock up on everything like mountains of baby stuff and paint her room and decorate and not being able to might send me on a murderous rampage 😂😂😂😂