Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

I wanted to thank you ladies for being there and answering my questions these past 4 months! I'm blessed to say we got our bfp today now just hoping and praying this is a healthy baby. :)

20 weeks and I haven't gained a pound, mind you I lost 30 because of #hyperemesisgravidarum but now that I'm eating small meals and growing a bump I should be gaining? Thank you baby boy for sucking life out of me, still love u 💙💙

Had my anatomy scan and genetics testing done today at 16 weeks, 4 days !! Baby girl is 6 ounces now and was kicking up a storm. I still ahvent gained or lost a pound yet!! Heartrate was 144 and she is healthy and for that, I'm thankful !! I love you scarlette jayde !!

Thanks for all the ❤️ guys! I think I'm in shock! Labor story in a bit I'm being attacked with visitors lol