Hi guys i want to share with you something personal and i need help or just an advice from someone who have been through this . well I've been married for almost 2 years with the man that i love ~we had a baby girl and she's 15 months now but the problem is that I'm not happy with my life of course i love my baby i will do anything for her but I'm talking about me about my condition that is I'm pretending to be someone who is happy but I'm not I'm sad all the time i hate the house that i live in sometimes i just can't stand anyone just want to be alone go somewhere faaar away from my family my friends almost most of time i regret being married being a surrounded by people I get angry for no reason; i don't sleep at night sometimes i think about leaving everything behind me .... Most of people will say go to a therapist i don't want to go to a doctor and tell me after that take depression medicine ; I want to heal my self by me so please anyone tell me what should I do ?