Follow up to me post earlier:
So my story goes... We've had a bad relationship as it is, I found out some things after I had put first daughter... Fast forward I found out when I was about 4 months with our second daughter that he cheated on me let alone at that time we both were ready to go our separate ways just coparent our girls. Would that be considered cheating? I just can't seem to get past the cheating(if that is considered cheating) and he will not give me any affection unless he is getting some thing in return... And it seems to only bother me when I want his affection but he refuses to give it. I feel like if I leave him maybe he'll get the point, but then again if I leave and we don't get back together then in reality maybe I wasn't good enough for him to begin with...

Not only that just recently I was diagnosed with PPD and an underlying case of depression. Which I don't feel he supports. So yes I now take an antidepressant daily. But I still have anger outburst like yesterday. Man o man I'm one fucked up girl.  Grrr.....