I’m definitely having a mental break through. Today I read “12 Signs You need to let go” on…

I’m definitely having a mental break through. Today I read “12 Signs You need to let go” on Pinterest. I finally realized my marriage will never get better, he will never change... yet I know he will never let me go. So how do I leave when I’m not viewed as a person in his eyes-but a piece of property. I get no privacy. He makes the same pattern of mistakes over & over and doesn’t even make an effort to apologize. I’m in a time capsule because I’m exactly where I am 8 years ago when I married him. Change isn’t acceptable and i have been living under his control for so long... I’m weak & I’ll admit it.

Before I found that article I tried AGAIN to talk to him about how sick & tired I am of sacrificing and giving for his sake but I get NOTHING back... I got shot down on the spot because he didn’t wanna talk about it. The sad part is, the REAL me wouldn’t give a damn. I’d voice my opinion & demand respect but I’ve become someone who has to literally bow down or it will escalate... & he ALLWAYS wins. That’s just it! He cares about “winning” when I just wanted to be acknowledged... we’ll screw that! I don’t like the person he’s turned me into. Just know... changes ARE coming. I hope he enjoyed the last 8 years “winning” & owning me like a piece of property because fortunately I’m a Christian and the Lord woks in mysterious ways