Had to have a long conversation with hubby nd my big sis. My mom passed away in 03 nd my second…

Had to have a long conversation with hubby nd my big sis. My mom passed away in 03 nd my second mother/my aunt/my godma passed away in 2017 of January. I've been having dreams of them and I wake up with tears in my eyes every time. I miss them so much nd I need them so bad bc I'm going through this. This pregnancy has been such a struggle for me. I'm sad that I cant speak to them or for them to be in the delivery room with me. I'm so scared of Wednesday, I've never had a high risk pregnancy before. I know my man is going to be there nd my big sis but I wish it was different. I miss them so much it hurts.