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Ruth Grobler
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On this day two years ago was the worst day of my life... at 16weeks pregnant I had a miscarge due to a cancerous growth…

On this day two years ago was the worst day of my life... at 16weeks pregnant I had a miscarge due to a cancerous growth in my uterus.. needless to say, that day I spent hours in theater with doctors cutting out the growth as well as scraping my uterus out to remove any sign of the life tgat was growing inside me... and all I could do was cry and cry and feel empty inside... it's not a day I speak of often and for good reason. I'm a strong woman by nature and at that moment I was weak.. and to top it all off the doctors kept telling me that I should prepare myself for maybe getting to terms that I might not be able to conceive a child of my own... and three months later I found out I was pregnant again.. this time around I wasn't as excited.. it was more just a waiting game to see when it will happen again.. went for test every month and to my surprise and that of the doctors.. cancer free.. no traces of any abnormal growth forming again.. and my precious boy was growing strong and fast.. moving around a lot and reminding me every day that life will find a way.. at 39 weeks I started getting contractions.. but nothing happened.. went to the doc for a sonar and yup.. the little man was trying to get out.. but I was not dilating so after a few hours of struggle the little man just gave up.. this went on for 3 weeks until we finally okayed a c-section.. so at 43 weeks pregnant on this day last year I went into hospital onto an operation table again.. but this time for the best day of my life, the birth of my beautiful boy.. but the anesthesia didn't take hold and I felt every moment, but even that was okay, because from the first moment I laid eyes on him I've been sooo in love and every minute that passes by I just love him more and more.. and a year has gone by so fast.. he's growing too quickly and I just wish that I could freeze time for a moment so that my baby will remain a baby for just a little while longer.. so with a happy heart for the joy he has brought into my life on this day and a sad realization that time goes by too quickly.. I wish my little ray of sunshine a Happy Birthday.. may he always find love and happiness wherever he goes

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday…

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?

!!!!LABOR STORY!!!! Saturday at 1AM, lost my mucus plug/bloody show, and I was freaking out! A couple of hours later I…

!!!!LABOR STORY!!!! Saturday at 1AM, lost my mucus plug/bloody show, and I was freaking out! A couple of hours later I had cramping, but felt like BH just a little stronger. They came and went, but felt stronger with each hour. Didn't sleep that whole night! I called the midwife at my hospital and told her I lost it and was having really bad cramping and she told me I was fine and was prob just having BH contractions. The next day I was having what I thought were strong BH contractions every 10-15 mins, but the new City Target had opened across the st from my MiL house in Fenway, (go Red Sox! ⚾ ) and I had to coupon (it is a big coupon week!) so, I went to Target and couponed, hurled over in pain every 10 minutes, coupons in hand 😂😂😢 Went home, contractions were really intense and came every 3-4mins, so around 3am I called the hospital again and said I'm having really bad pains, and I can barely walk. They take my breath away and I think I'm in labor. Again, she said I would be screaming and unable to be so "chatty" if I was in labor, and to stay home and go to sleep. Obviously I couldn't sleep with these killer contractions every 2-3 mins now! Monday morning, July 27 contractions were now every 1-2 minutes, intense like someone was rilling out my insides, I tried rocking on the glider in the nursery, tried soaking in the bathtub, but I was in tears from the pain and from lack of sleep for two nights now, so I told hubby if these aren't labor pains I'm not waiting until I'm actually in labor. Let's to go the hospital and get the Epidural (my plan was to go natural) and he's like ok let's go. Arrived at the hospital around 10:15, got admitted, sat around moaning while the nurses told me relax, you'll catch your breath, we will get you a room in a minute. Meanwhile I'm in a wheelchair doubled over barely able to breathe. I thought I was going to pass out from the pain! Got into a room, they listened to baby's heartbeat, and midwife came in to check for dilation. "Oh my god I don't even feel much cervix. You're 9cm dilated honey let's go push!" I almost passed out at that point! I told her I can't do this it hurts soooo bad. But we got into a room, I pushed for the longest ten minutes of my life and out he came! I tore and got stitches, but not from end to end thank god. Still sore and uterus is cramping but everything else is going well. Breastfeeding is so hard! We will get there though! Third night of no sleep so don't mind the bags under my eyes hahaha And yes I am going to hunt down that darn midwife who told me to stay at home cuz I was fine and not in labor! Smh I had a CVS coupon trip planned for yesterday, but I'll take Ezra any day! So glad I pulled through with my plan though. It feels so empowering! Not saying next time I'd do it again 😂😂😂