Four years ago today I sat in a hospital bed for hours while they took my blood, it felt like they…

Four years ago today I sat in a hospital bed for hours while they took my blood, it felt like they were draining my body and they didn’t know what was going on. Three hours later they sent me home only to call me two days later telling me it was an emergency.

I get in to be told I had a terrible blood infection that was shutting down my body and I could die. All this was from the unborn baby I was carrying. He/She has passed, a week earlier I was told I had a subchorionic hemorrhage and that it would go away on its own. Apparently it never did and when the baby passed it started to migrate into my blood stream and it caused a terrible infection.

I was rushed in for a DNC and was hospitalized in the ICU for three days. Three of the hardest days I’ve ever been through. It took a good amount of time to forgive myself. I thought it was my fault. That I did something wrong that harmed the beautiful child I was carrying. I know I will see my precious baby again, but until then, they are watching over as I raise their sweet brother here on earth ❤️

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