I need to vent 😭😭😢🤬

I guess it’s just my hormones but I was trying to get ready for a bbq and whatnot I burst out crying because I can’t find anything that fits or makes me feel pretty so it was upsetting to me plus I was ruining my make up so I got even more upset 😢 and continued crying on top of that we love with my bfs father who has forgetting issues badly so I started crying about that because with a new baby and him not taking his meds it’s going to be very overwhelming and now I just want him gone I don’t want to deal with this anymore I don’t want to help him or have to take him to his drs I’m done he needs to be in a home or live with his daughter I don’t have the energy to help him out plus with a baby on the way i can’t 😭😭😭
I feel like a horrible person for saying this but I don’t want to live with him my bf and I need to find our own place he can’t even go to the liquor store and get stuff and then go to his fuckin daughter I’m sick of this