Weird question

But what’s it like to give birth on a bed/ over a bed?

I’ve only had 2 waterbirths and now due to very low iron and other problems it looks like I won’t be allowed one this time and it’s really freaking me out :(

They’ve said I might need lots of monitoring in labour and I dunno, the whole thing just scares me

With my first two , I got to the hospital, got checked , got gas and air , got in the pool and fell asleep and then pushed . Very simple, no intervention , very calm and minimal pain and I didn’t make any noise at all, I was so calm

I just feel this is going to make me nervous and I’m going to end up screaming and being in a lot of pain and just start panicking

And I don’t want that , I want my waterbirth and I want the comfort of the tub

I’m sorry, I just feel so disheartened and don’t know what else to do right now :(