Looking for some advice!

Looking for some advice!

Hello ladies! I've never really done a post like this before, but really need some advice. I know many are FTM's here as am I, but I feel comfortable in this group, so I decided to post here. I need advice on how to cope with a baby in the NICU. Even writing it out made me tear up. My baby was born on Tuesday the 11th, and I was just released from the hospital today. She was born at 35w7d and was born with low blood sugars. That has gotten better, but she is struggling with digesting food and as the doctors explained it, she has a few issues that many premies deal with. I know she will get better and everything will be fine, but I am so depressed. When I leave her all I do is cry. I don't sleep, and when I do I have nightmares. I feel so devastated. I'm only happy when I'm holding her. I just feel so sad. I had her in my belly all this time, and now that she's here and I can't have her, my heart just feels broken. I'm sorry this is so long. It was really hard to write, as I'm crying right now. I just need advice from people that have been in this situation before. Right now I'm at home and feel horrible. I just want my baby. So, to better phrase it: how did you ladies cope with having to leave your baby in the NICU?