sorry for my Downer posts lately....

I feel so alone. I'm stuck at the house. I can't stay at my mom's because my step brothers in town. I don't know what's gotten into my husband lately but I really wish it would stop. He was fine today then we got home and everybody fell asleep early. Well I had to get up and change my colostomy bag,waking him. Well he starts to make gagging noises like it it's the most grossest thing in the world. I asked him nicely that I know it's kind of sick but if you could please hide it a little better. Because I'm already really self-conscious about it. He proceeded to call me repulsive and disgusting. At that point I just shut down. I've been crying in the bedroom for 2 hours. He's on the couch sleeping peacefully. My mom had the nerve to tell me I should be grateful he at least takes care of the kids. I feel so broken. Oh and I didn't even get a Merry Christmas from him today.