I just can't..... I've been going on like normal since finding out my treatment plan last week. But…

I just can't.....

I've been going on like normal since finding out my treatment plan last week. But I can't even make myself get out of bed today. I have to watch the babies till my mil comes. I just want one day to sad. But there is always something that has to get done. Like tomorrow the kids will be gone but I have my step grandma's funeral to go to. Then Tuesday all the additional testing starts. I feel like I'm breaking inside and nobody sees it. I'm so scared because I don't know how badly this will suck. I just want to feel like myself again. But I know it'll get worse before it gets better.