numb So it's 12:30 in the morning here and I don't really know how to feel right now. I had my…

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So it's 12:30 in the morning here and I don't really know how to feel right now. I had my oncologist appointment today. They are recommending that I do a combination chemo for at least 6 months. Maybe more depending on what the more tests show. Not the news I was hoping for but at least my odds are still good. I'm just scared bc I don't know what to expect really. I have yet another scan on the 10th and surgery to put my port in soon after then start treatment mid October of one pill & one iv type. The pill is what scares me bc the Dr says the side effects could be worse then what it would be if I was on the IV form of it. But if I did it that,way I would have to be hooked up to it at home for 48 hours. And that doesn't work well with the little ones. So,we are trying the pill first. Fingers crossed I can handle it. My mind is all over the place right now. It's like I'm numb but at the same time I feel dumb for worrying bc the outlook is good. I'm just worried how I'm going to care for my babies if and when this drains me.