it feels like it's all Crashing Down

So DS started daycare on Monday since I can't lift him. Tuesday they sent a note home saying he vomited. The projectile kind. And I noticed he wasn't being himself when he got home on Tuesday all he did was sleep didn't want to play didn't want to eat. Wednesday morning comes get him & dh out the door. They come back not even five minutes later because he had puked all over everything. So needless to say vomiting baby isn't allowed in daycare as well as his daddy informed me he didn't have a wet diaper all night long. So I call the on-call nurse because it's not even 7 a.m. yet. She tells me to push Pedialyte and he had till 2 to make a wet diaper. So it took all day to get him to be able to keep anything down he waited till 1:30 to have a wet diaper. So needless to say my husband stayed home no matter how hard I protested..he wanted to be here in case we needed to take him in. Thank goodness we didn't end up having to and he feels perfect today. But now my dh got a write up at work for missing yesterday. So now I'm panicking because if he misses anymore he doesn't have a job. I feel like it's my fault. Because I got sick I mean I know I didn't choose to but still kind of feel like it's on me. Because I'm the one that never had to go to the doctor. I'm the one that was always able to take care of the babies if they got sick. But now that I have all these doctors appointments and I can't take care of them on my own just yet it's causing so many issues. Part of me wishes I would have never went to the emergency room to figure out what was going on with me. But at the same time I'm happy I did because if I waited it could have been worse. I just hate the fact that my health issues could affect my family's well-being in every aspect. I did get on my Staples removed today so that was good I guess. But I found out my labs came back and my levels are at a t4 whatever that means. But they did tell me if it was at a 3t I wouldn't require any more treatment other than the surgery I've already had. But since it's a little higher than that it's all up to the oncologist... we shall see Monday. Which now my husband doesn't even get to go with me to.... but I got my sister.