trying not to worry... I got a chance to speak with the obgyn & GI dr that did my surgery. The GI…

trying not to worry...

I got a chance to speak with the obgyn & GI dr that did my surgery. The GI doctor of course was very adamant to not give his ideal about what it could be. Like they're supposed to. But he did clarify the size of the mass was actually softball-size and the inside of my colon looks more damage then they thought. When the obgyn came in a little later she accidentally let it slip that her and the GI doctor are leaning towards colon cancer. And you can tell it was a thought that she didn't mean to say cuz she was trying to backtrack her way out of it. So I'm hoping my test come back sooner then they estimated. I'm just worried now more than I was before. And I'm up at the hospital by myself which honestly I'm not dealing with as well as I thought I would. The pain medication keeps giving me horrible nightmares that I keep waking up in a panic. So I'm going to try and hold on taking any more until morning. My husband was only up here for an hour before he went home and my mom didn't even bother to come back. But at least my sister brought my baby up to see me. I really wish I could see DD but I know she wouldn't understand she couldn't climb up on me right now. thanks for listening I just had to get that out because it hurts to cry at the moment so I'm holding everything in