vent the 1st LIE So my loving husband that's been telling me for months on end that he just has no…

vent the 1st LIE

So my loving husband that's been telling me for months on end that he just has no sex drive or desire to do anything has apparently been looking at porn behind my back. After he's been telling me that his lack of sex drive has nothing to do with me because he doesn't even feel the need to look porn. Which he knows I have no problem with if he does. My problem is with the fact that he lied about it. Which makes me feel like the problem has been me all a long. Finally the other night he showed interest in me but unfortunately it hurt me to finish. I only found out because he forgot his phone so I unlock it to find his boss's number to tell him to come get it and I accidentally hit the back button on the browser and it popped up. So giving him the benefit of the doubt like maybe it was a fluke. So I look at browsing history nope not a fluke. He ended up coming home 10 minutes later. I'm in tears and asked why he felt the need to lie and he just walked out. I'm sitting here crying because he has never lied before so why start now? It's like he doesn't even care if it hurt me.