Hello I'm new to this group

Hello I'm new to this group

Hi, so I thought I'd introduce myself and give my story since this group is new to me. I've been on babybump for over 5years. I have 2 children 12yr old & 5yr old boys. We have been ttc for 4yrs and 7mo now. During this ttc period we have fell pregnant once 3/2015. We were so excited I screamed at 4am! Lol. After a week or so from finding out I started spotting. I knew something was wrong. The dr told me to just be calm as it can be normal. Well after 4days of it not stopping nor getting heavier they had me go in. Ultrasound showed nothing hcg was going up but not doubling. I was monitored for about a wk. blood tests every 48hrs (once was 72hrs). And on ultrasound #3 they seen my baby growing in my tube. Heartbeat and all. So I was transferred immediately to my dr office and was given the option of methotrexate or surgery. I went with the 2 shots to hopefully save my tube. Well everything went as they hoped and I lost my baby 4/2015. After that my periods would go longer and longer in between. To the point I was only having 4cycles in a year. My OB said my only hope for conceiving would be clomid but she couldn't prescribe it. So I got clomid on my own. I am expecting AF by tomorrow after my 3rd month on clomid. So I'm really struggling with staying positive on this journey when I feel like nothing is working. I would love to do IVF. but taking out a loan to do it just doesn't seem realistic since we don't want to be in debt if we were to conceive. So anyhow that's my story! Sorry it's so long. But hoping I can find some new comfort in this group. I've been very active in the Trying to conceive and charting.