Thought for sure I'd have my solid smiley but it's still blinking! Wth!!!! I also thought my O was…

Thought for sure I'd have my solid smiley but it's still blinking! Wth!!!! I also thought my O was gonna b on the 20th. I'm getting so upset it's never gonna happen. This week has been such a hard week. Death, stuff at work, and tomorrow marks 2yrs when I found out I was pregnant with my ectopic pregnancy! It's the hardest week! I just want to cry all day everyday lately!