Мама двоих (4 года, 11 лет)

Crying ? I'm so emotional

This journey has been one of the hardest things ever. Ups, downs, sideways & in circles! We have been trying for a baby since my lil guy was 1. He is almost 5. I was finally able to get pregnant 3/2015 and 6days later I started spotting. They kept saying that can happen. It's ok. But I knew something was wrong. So after a blood draw and another and another again and again. They finally ordered a 3rd ultrasound and yup, there was my baby, heartbeat and all, in my Fallopian tube! I was ordered not to leave the hospital and was given methotrexate on 4/1/2015. I officially passed 2 tiny blood clots on 4/3/2015. And just like that, my baby was gone. And all I could think was it wasn't a "mass", it wasn't "just cells", as that's how my baby was referred to, that was my baby! Since then I haven't been able to get pregnant. Why? What's wrong with me? Am I broken? Did I do something wrong to deserve this?