Advice idk? Well first let me say I'm writing this here because I have no one to talk too. I don't…

Advice idk?

Well first let me say I'm writing this here because I have no one to talk too. I don't have any real friends. I constantly feel like if you tell people personal things they just use it against you. But here are a bunch of strangers willing to listen. I hate to use the word depressed because I feel like there's someone out there who has it worse than me but I cant help if that's how I feel I'm starting to feel like I'm more sad or mad than I am happy. I'm starting to feel like I have no one. I'm married but when me and my husband are fighting it's nice to be able to vent to someone else and I don't have that so I'm constantly bottling things up. My husband called me needy last night and it hasn't been sitting well with me. I depend on him finically but now I feel like I'm leaning on him too much emotionally since he's really the only friend I have. I told him it bothered me that he called me needy an he said he was sorry but it's still bothering me. A lot of things are bothering me. I keep feeling like my husband doesn't care about me whenever I tell him I'm tired or don't feel well he says things like "sleep when you're dead" or that's life basically. When it's the other way around though I'm always like what can I do to make you feel better or take a nap idk. I feel like he takes me for granted I feel like because I don't work and he does he thinks the things he does and the things he's dealing with is more important. When I tell him this he says I take him for granted and that I'm ungrateful and I try to evaluate myself and see what I can do to be more appreciative. I tell him he isn't gonna be happy until I'm gone and he says dido. Basically anything I tell him about how I'm feeling instead of addressing it he says I make him feel the same way so I'm starting to feel like none of our problems are being solved like we're going in circles. Also I feel like I'm more affectionate than him and that's bothering me too. I feel like I'm someone who likes to touch a lot it makes me feel wanted and he is affectionate just not as much as me. Idk what advice I'm really asking for I'm just stating to feel overwhelmed. We've been married for a year and we have a baby. I love him and I want this to work out I just feel like we aren't dealing with our problems in a good way and there only getting worse. Instead of talking about it I feel like we just bicker and dance around the topics. Before anyone says well you should tell him all of this I have & like I said it his leads to fighting