Baby blues Ugh I've got the baby blues. I love Liam. I bonded really well with him and he brightens…

Baby blues

Ugh I've got the baby blues. I love Liam. I bonded really well with him and he brightens my day. I'm exhausted though. I have no appetite at all. I only eat once a day. When I talk to my husband about him not helping me. He says I make him feel like he's a dead beat and that he doesn't do anything and that I don't see everything he does. So then we just don't talk about it again. He works and I don't. When he comes home he sleeps. He plays and holds the baby long enough for me to shower and fix myself up s bit and that it. I'm up with the baby all day. He only sleep for 2-3 hours. And at night he won't sleep anywhere but in my arms I can't remember the last time I've slept without holding him as well. It doesn't even feel like sleep. It's making me resent my husband. Even on his days off I get up with Liam during the night. He won't change poopy diapers he claims he may actually throw up on the baby from the smell. I thought he would help more but he isn't and the lack of sleep is driving me crazy. He can see I'm upset too and asks me what's wrong. It takes everything in me not to snap on him. I just say nothing because I'm tired of telling him I need help and he doesn't help me. My body aches. At times when the baby cries I'm so tired I don't want to move and I just cry with him for a second. I keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel everyone says the first few weeks are the hardest so I'm trying to stay positive it will get better. I'm just getting sad, I can't wake to shake these baby blues away. Having a newborn is way harder than I thought it would be. We are only on week 2 this has been the longest 2 weeks of my life