The anxiety/fear is real ?

The anxiety/fear is real ?

My husband and I tried getting pregnant as soon as we got married . Over the last 5 years , we have had 13 miscarriages total . As I am approaching my 30th week of a finally healthy pregnancy ; I have all these boxes of my sons stuff sitting waiting to be set up . Long story short , I am PETRIFIED, to actually build any of it ? I just have this fear of loosing another baby , and couldn't imagine coming home to all his stuff set up , God forbid something did happen . Has any other mom gone through this ? How did you cope/manage ? Surely I cannot wait till he's born to do everything, so any advice on how to get through this ? I've tried a few times and just broke down . Help ?