Do you ever have one of those moments where you're fighting back both tears of happiness and pain at the same time?…

You don't have to keep it together everyday. It's hard, and you are allowed to have days like this.

Your family is beautiful.

Oh hunny I'm so sorry and u definitely don't have to keep it together just let it out I haven't been thru what u have but I have had 3 miscarriages and Tuesday I went with my sister to her sonogram appt to find out what she's havin and I was gettin emotional durin it one bein happy everything is ok with her baby but two upset that I should b havin my baby then end of this month or should b havin a baby in February as I had 2 miscarriages in October and last month im sorry ur goin thru this and I wish u the best u have a beautiful family and I'm so glad ur gettin ur rainbow

A friend once told me grief is like a costume or an outfit. You feel like you'll never be able to take it off but then a day comes that you are able to put it in your closet. And that's okay to put it away. But then a day also comes that you need to put it back on. And that's also okay, put it back on when you need to.

You're so strong, I think if I were you pretty much every day i would be like that. Everytime I see you post you are always so well written and crazy strong. I'm sure he is in such a nice place & still with you all / watching over your new little one. I seriously can't put into words the amount of strength you must have. On top of all of that you are gorgeous and so is your family! I feel like there's always going to be times where you wish he were there, but even though he can't be physically he is there in other ways.

Bless you sweetie❤ My prayers are with you. You and your family are so strong.

Gorgeous family!!! ?Such an incredible woman you are. Beautiful, brave and strong. What a sincere gift to your family!!! I'm so sorry for what you have been through and so hopeful for where tomorrow will bring you. Your family is not defined by a number..but by the love and compassion in your hearts and your sharing of that love with each other.

At the tears walk..a speaker said.. My child may have been born still....but he was still born... Celebrate the gift of your love for him. All of you. Celebrate the deepest truest love you have to embrace your belly baby with. It's ok to hurt. Hugs ?

Sometimes the only way to deal with something is to curl into a ball and cry, so don't feel ashamed about it. This is a beautiful picture. I hope you find strength and healing soon ❤️

(((hugs))) you're one amazing mama and you give 1000% in so many different areas - girl curl up, cry, run, laugh, write, build, break... Do whatever your heart and head need. Each day you grow and get to start anew, and your blessings are growing too!!

You are an amazing, strong woman and mother!!! You are allowed to curl up and cry whenever you need to. You have a beautiful family and you're doing a wonderful job. I will keep you in my prayers.

What a beautiful family you have. I wanted to tell you, you have a beautiful graceful way with words.

Still thinking of you guys ❤️

❤I admire your strength and beautiful heart ? ((hugs))

Thank you all. I just don't feel very strong right now. This new pregnancy has beat me down emotionally. I've always felt like a strong person. I'm always positive and have a deep faith.

But I don't feel any of those things. I just feel scared.

All. The. Time.

It's really starting to take a toll.

Do you have a home doppler?? That may help take away some fear. You don't need to be strong all the time, no one is! Do you see a therapist? I think that could help especially finding someone who specializes in Mc / pregnancy.

I do have a Doppler and it's been very helpful. I don't like to use it often but when I'm feeling anxious, I will for about a minute just for reassurance.

I didn't think I needed a therapist but I guess it wouldn't hurt. I think I need to write more. I'm just stuffing everything and it's not helping.

Oh momma, i am so sorry for you. I look at my own family pictures and think the same thing. I am already worrying about how i am pregnant again and will have family pictures made and Ryan wont be in them. That i will have new pictures without her in them. I just keep telling myself she is with us everyday in her own way.

A friend gave me an angel pendant and I wear it everyday. It makes me feel better knowing "she" is represented some way in pictures and adventures.

Ur family is precious! ❤️