Anyone else hoping for a Christmas miracle?

It's been about 10 months now since we started trying for our second born. I never imagined things would go this way. I had two early miscarriages this year, one in June and one in September. They were both devastating and since September, I really just haven't had the heart to fully try again...as far as tracking ovulation and such, although I'm still dying to have another baby. I know it's in Gods hands if he wants us to have anymore children. But I'm really praying that even though we didn't track again this month we'll somehow get a miracle for Christmas. Not sure if it'll happen or not and honestly I'm scared in a way to get pregnant again because of the thought of losing another. So many emotions this year. Here's to hoping 2017 goes better...