So Emotional *TRIGGER * I know im super pregnant and could be the hormones and all... buuuut....…
So Emotional *TRIGGER *
I know im super pregnant and could be the hormones and all... buuuut.... today my son would've been 4 years old! When i delievered him i was only 23w 3d. My membranes were bulging out and i was having contractions back to back. So when i got to l&d they told me they didn't want to risk sending me to I'm more advanced hospital because it was 2 hours away so they sent them to me and the inverted the bed until they got there. A nurse came over to me shortly after and informed me that there's nothing that they could probably do and to be prepared for the worst and tears just started coming out of my eyes and I couldn't control it this was my second pregnancy and I didn't know what causes or why this was happening to me at this point my boyfriend which is now my husband was away in Kansas at a time and I'm all the way in Delaware because he was in the army so I'm blowing his phone up and when I finally reach him and tell him what's going on he's trying to scramble up money to get a plane ticket to come home so initially I was going through all of this by myself. They ended up breaking my water and having me deliver my son who was only 1 lb 4 oz his heart was so weak and he was taking small breaths but didnt cry and was quickly taken away... moments later they came back and said he didnt make it and they gave me my last moments to hold him while he takes his lasts breath. ??? like i just wish i see him and hold him and tell him im sorry and i love him. And like i wish i got to see him grow. I love you and ill never forget u ????
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I’m so sorry this has happened to you, but sweetheart you have nothing to say sorry for. None of this is your fault. Have you been given counselling to deal with your grief?
I’m sure theres also another group for grief and losses. There will be mothers who have been through similar situations, who you could talk to. I can’t imagine what you’re feeling right now. Stay positive ❤️
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I’m so sorry you’re going through this today I couldn’t imagine grieving with that kind of loss. Maybe you could find a special way to celebrate him today, he may not have lived very long but his life was a huge part of your life and you should celebrate it. Hope you’re able to find peace and comfort today❤️
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I'm so sorry for your loss ?
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I felt the pain in your words. Hugs mama x
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I am so sorry for your loss. Wish I could give you a big hug.
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I'm really sorry to hear of your loss. Big hugs x
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I am so sorry you had to go through this. Be strong and remember your precious baby is watching over you and will always be with you in your heart ? prayers and love ?this breaks my heart
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This made me tear up. Im so sorry Op??? I feel your pain, literally. I just couldn't imagine the heart break of seeing your baby taking their first yet last breaths ?? may he rest in eternal peace and love and may you find refuge and strength ❤
Our babies are in heaven together ?❤
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So sorry for your loss. You guys will meet again.
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? I felt the sadness in your words. Your baby will shower you with love when you meet again.
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I’m so sorry?
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Oh sweetheart, my heart goes out to you! I am so sorry that you had to go through that and I wish with all my heart your little Prince could have made it. Just remember you'll always have an angel watching over your and your family in heaven. Hugs and love your way. If you ever need to talk or need support or just kind words, feel free to send me a message ?