Kinda a rant? Mostly bummed.

Kinda a rant? Mostly bummed.

So this is my first birthday without my great aunt Anne, who was my second grandmother when my nanny died and lived across the street from me. I looked across the street wishing she was in her swing chair and just bawled. I'm just upset and bummed that I couldn't see her today. I didn't have time to go to the cemetery today due to my father picking me up an hour or so late so i could have cherry cheesecake that was my Nanny's recipe with my great aunt Catherine that she made for me and was amazing btw lol. I spent time with my little brother before he leaves for Florida to go back to my mothers and he's still in denial about aunt Anne's death, so he won't go and see her because he doesn't want to face reality yet. But I did go over her house to say hello to uncle Harold and go look at her garden. So I felt like she was here but didn't feel the same. But I was glad that I felt her presence in the garden. She was a great woman. Very sweet and never mean. Just upsetting I couldn't see her on my 17th birthday /: