While missing my dad, my son cheered me up.
So my dads birthday was a few days ago. I was feeling pretty down because its almost three years since he unexpectedly passed. I always wish my son could have met him. Last night I was looking at old pictures of us and my 2 yr old came to join me. He pointed to great grandma ( calls her grandma), I said "wheres mommy?" which he pointed to me and said mummy. Then I pointed at my father and asked "whos this? " I previously referred to him as grandpa in other pictures so if anything I was expecting that. Instead he said " Thats Pop-pa. I asked again thinking it was a fluke with other pictures and he kept repeating pop pop. Its strange because hes never heard that word before , and my father used to refer to his grandfather as Pop. It makes me so happy to think of the possibility that my dad is still with us.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I am so stressed right now!!!
My OB doesn’t want to take me anymore because I am too “high risk” so I got a new one they don’t want to see me either. They referred me to a group one hour way from my house. But there is only one high risk dr and he doesn’t know if he could see me.
I feel like I should not see any at this point.

Am I wrong to be upset? Last night I was running a fever, weak, tired, sore, my left boob feels like it got used as a punching bag. I asked my husband to call out of work today to help me with the kid so I could get some rest. He went to work. I texted him this morning. Part of me thinks I mean. The other part of me thinks I was fine for saying that because he should've stayed home with us.
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My SO has been rude a lot ever since I've gotten pregnant...he said he doesn't care about my pregnancy, he doesn't even take one day off from work just ONE to come to at least one ultra sound appointment. I mean he's always making sure I'm fed, he lets use the heating pad, and even apologized to saying he doesn't care. He can mess with me all day but when I want to join and play around he gives me an attitude. He just makes me feel like s*** at times. He's a great fiancé don't get me wro...