Happy but sad I got a job (yay! Because that means we can apply for a loan and get a house) I start…

I ask my husband all the time why I have to go to work. You get used to it, but I still want to be with my baby. Leave early on your first day so you can compose yourself in the car before going in. I know I cried the entire drive. Waterproof mascara if any.

I’d like to tell you that it gets easier but it never really did for me, that is until they started school. The drive to work is the worst along with saying goodbye (which by the way, I always say “see you later” instead because I hate goodbyes). But once you’re actually at work it’s not so bad. It’s nice to get some “grown up” time.

It’s not easy and when I’m at the school he’s literally in the next room. I’m suppose to take a promotion after Christmas break and I’ll be in the office 5 days a week and I don’t think I can do it. I just try to make the time we do have even more meaningful. I’ve stopped listening to the radio in the car so I can talk to him just things like that.

I feel for you, because the anxiety of my baby starting daycare was making me crazy. I found a few blogs on Pinterest, but honestly, just talking to other working moms was the most comforting. I went back to work 3 months ago when my little guy was 16 weeks. I wish I could tell you you’ll be fine, but you won’t. It sucks...at first. You will be sad, cry, worry, and miss him like crazy. But then you get into a routine, you cherish the time you have, and seeing them happy & content will help you breath easier. Just know that you are doing what is best for your family, and that is all that matters.

It is never fun leaving your kids, but I always try to think of the positives and remember that it's not necessarily about quantity, it's about quality. We are able to provide more for our children because of the sacrifices we make.

Now that my little one is able to crawl, when she sees me walk into her daycare classroom, she immediately gets a big smile on her face and starts crawling over to me. It is the best feeling ever. Also, I personally feel that I am a better mom to my kids because I have some time to myself and can focus on my career and my goals as well.

I actually enjoy the little break I get, by working 4 days a week.

Thanks ladies. I cry every time I think about it. I should really be thankful I was able to make it this long as a SAHM. I know a lot of ladies had to return to work shortly after their lo’s were born. I’ve tried talking to DH about it, but he just doesn’t understand. He doesn’t have the bond with Jack that I do.

For me, being at work was hard initially and I felt so guilty but as time goes on I feel less guilty. Yes of course there’s days when he’s sick or not feeling well and I just want to up and quit. But ever since going back to work I feel like a better mom. I feel more refreshed when I get home and work reminds me that I’m a person too. Not just a mom or a wife but still the person I’ve always been. In the long run, going back to work has been therapeutic for me personally.