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Today would have been my due date

So today March 1st I would have met my princess... we lost her after years of trying to get pregnant many cycles of iui clomid which did not work we finally put all our savings into a ivf frozen cycle transferred 2 embroyos and got pregnant with just her we were so excited and never even worried about losing her. I am a vegetarian but she made me crave red meat ( apparently she was just like my Dh) which made us laugh she never made me feel sick and I was just happy until I started bleeding at work I rushed to the dr to find out I had a blood clot but she was fine I cried for hours that day from the scare and another sonogram later seeing she was perfectly fine gave me peace two weeks later I go in very excited to see her video taping the whole appointment to show my DH since he was out of town for work and bam the dr words hit me like a ton of bricks “no heartbeat” I was in complete shock and although I had a million questions in my head I couldn’t speak this was the worst day of my life and than I had to tell my husband on the phone it’s taken me months to even talk about her to anyone except my DH ani have dreaded today arrival for months and now it’s here and all I can think about is how differently today was supposed to be for us. Losing a baby that u have prayed for for so long is heart crushing I pray for her still and still have all the things we bought for her I wish we had closure but we don’t so I just wanted to vent I know I am not the only one who has lost a baby here so it’s the only safe place to vent. Praying we all get our rainbow babies while ever forgetting our angel babies

Today would have been my due date

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