sushi I'm writing this here so I can journal this in the morning! So I came to terms with losing the…

It makes so much sense and I know exactly exactly how that feels ! It's like part of you is happy you get to enjoy the thing you weren't allowed to have but then a wave of sadness comes over you because you wish you weren't in this situation at all . You'd rather have no sushi !

I know wot u mean... Ive just taken a pregnancy test to see how my hcg levels are dropping and it was negative and i was just sat there thinking how sad it is that i should be in my 2nd trimester but instead im sat here hoping for a negative pregnancy test so i can start ttc again ?

when i had my mc i thought the same thing when i had sushi like i shouldnt be eating this right now and my heart ached, sorry for your loss mama

I totally know how you feel!! It's been a week since mine and I feel guilty for even planning things that I wouldn't of planned when I was pregnant! It's torture.. Maybe it's the beginning stages of dealing with all of this.

I really have come to terms with it, but then the sushi went and screwed that all up. So many questions. Waiting to try again is whats so brutal. We will get through this ladies. I guess there will be days where we cry about it when after we go a few days perfectly happy. I don't get emotions sometimes.

That's how I feel every time I try to have one of my fav things in the world --- a nice glass of wine :( :( it'll never be the same :( now since I'm TTC again I'm following a regular pregnancy diet just in case I am/do get pregnant. It's making it easier to avoid those things and not bringing back those bad feelings

When I had just found out about my baby dying, I went out and had a mojito just a day after. With it still inside. I hadn't passed the baby yet. It was horrible. ? I think I also had sushi that weekend too. Horrible. It was the hardest thing I've been through. I'm so sorry you've had to feel the same thing. So sorry for your loss.

Thank you both. It sucks, but I'm glad we have these forums to help us not feel alone!

Im sorry....i know that exact feeling. For quite a while after my miscarriage i couldnt go to the grocery store without crying for this same reason. I worked so hard to cut out all things bad & work on takingin the good things for baby. Then, baby was gone and suddenly it didnt matter anymore what i was eating/drinking.....?

Ugh, little things like this pop up at the most random times. I am sorry ? it doesn't really get any easier. I was due November 7th, and I am constantly reminding myself of the newborn that I should have right now. Really, every anniversary and milestone is tough. Every month that I failed at getting pregnant, I drink wine and take a boiling hot bath. The alcohol feels good but then I'm sad because I couldn't take a hot bath or drink alcohol if I were pregnant. It's comforting and depressing at the same time!

It does makes sense. I think to all of us. Loosing a part of u is never easy. I don't know if it's your first loss or not. It does get better but you never heal fully.

I hope I am not putting you off, I think God put us under a very hard test, and we just need to lean to survive and enjoy what we have, value it, and continue living. Have faith.

I conceived really quick after having a MMC and I am not over it. Im due in a few weeks time and I still cry for my loss. I don't love this baby less. Im excited, but oh dear how much I miss my baby bean.

Everything is gonna remind u of ur lost one. Pregnant ladies in the street might be a nightmare to watch. Sushi might remind u of ur baby, or a TV add, or the most random thing.

Ur loss is still fresh, Do give urself time to recover and to cry. U need it.

U need ur time to acknowledge what happened. Everyone needs time in order to move on. I promise you the people around u will understand.

Hopefully u concieve soon, praying for u

Xxx