I am a paranoid wreck. I keep waiting for my lines to get lighter like last time which ended in a…

I am a paranoid wreck. I keep waiting for my lines to get lighter like last time which ended in a miscarriage. I was 4w4d when we found out it was a chemical and as that day is getting closer and closer I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. These test seem pretty dark but my easy@home test are barely visible.