Next month my baby girl will be 3 years old. It will also be 6 months since my kid's father has…

Next month my baby girl will be 3 years old. It will also be 6 months since my kid's father has contacted them....if we are so much better off without him why does my heart break so much for my babies....if I would have just stayed with him and took the pain maybe he would have stayed for my babies...😭💔