I am the oldest out of 12 kids on both my mother and father side... my mom has 4 while my dad has…

I am the oldest out of 12 kids on both my mother and father side... my mom has 4 while my dad has 6... this is my first child but my 3rd pregnancy (2 miscarriages at 16 and 20 weeks) my first marriage and first actually “working” relationship out of a long string of dead-end relationships... I am only 23 years old and I just got an apartment in March after 2 years of basically being homeless bouncing from couch to couch and city to city...this the first time I have been out of work for longer than a couple of weeks and my husband actually enjoys being the only one to bring in money , says it makes him feel “manly” 🙄.... I have no clue what I’m doing in being a mother or wife but I try and all I’ve been asking is just for the same help I wouldn’t think twice about giving to someone else...wither it be my husband, my family, friends or even you guys... how can someone judge a situation they haven’t been in themselves? And if you have, how can you sit there and put that person down? I wrote this to let you know that I’m not perfect but hey guess everyone else got it right on their first time too 🤷🏽‍♀️