In honor of my Mom for Mother’s Day, I want to share a little bit about her:
🥀 Her favorite color was purple. - Somehow I never even knew this until after she died and I read it in her journal. It’s always been my favorite color too. How can a daughter never know her Mothers favorite color is the same as hers?
🥀 She was a nurse. She spent many years studying hard and earning her Associates, Bachelors, and Masters degrees. - I never told her, but she inspired me to do the same. I chose IT but I earned all 3 of my degrees, including my Masters, while raising my children as she did. I remembered all those nights watching her stay up all night and study. She never gave up.
🥀 She prayed for her children and family every single day. She spent many years praying for me, specifically, asking God to keep me safe and bring me out of whatever I was in. - I didn’t share much of my life with my Mom. I didn’t want her to know how much pain I was in and how much I wanted out of it, but reading her anguished journal entries asking God to save me made me realize my secrets hurt her more than the truth would have.
🥀 She never really found her happiness and joy again after her divorce. She tried so hard but I could always see it in her eyes. - I found a picture in one of her albums of the 4 of us together at Christmas. She had a handwritten note underneath it that said “Christmas 2000 - My picture perfect family.”
🥀 She was an amazing scrapbooker. She put so much time into creating the most beautiful albums. - I never even saw them until after she died.
🥀 She was so extremely close to her Mom. - We were never that close unfortunately, but she definitely inspired me to be as close with my daughter as she was with her Mom.
🥀 She was a beautiful woman who loved God and loved her family. - Nothing in this world hurts me more than the fact that it took me losing her to realize just how amazing she was and how much I always took for granted that she would be here now. 😪
It’s been less than 2 years since you suddenly left, but the pain is still just as unbearable. I love you and miss you SO much Mama! 😪 #mothersday
@brookemmoore wow....that must be so sad to read. She is an inspiration and a true role model. Not to bash my mom (because she's my mom and I still love her), but she gave up raising my sis and I in our teens ...so when I see selfless moms that devout themselves to their kids and to their every needs, it truly hits a spot for me.
For me, all I can do is pray for him now. And it was meant to be, so most of the time I'm ok with it all because it's destiny...but at others, I just can't help it. Sorry for rambling. I wish you the best for the future and hope that the pain lessens as time goes by. I truly admire what you are doing. 💛
@sofie321, I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. I know how you feel about wishing you had done more. My Mom died thinking my sister and I didn’t love her because we didn’t go see her or call her as much as we should have. It was written in her journals. Knowing she felt that way kills me more than anything. 😪
I'm so sad to hear this. I lost my father in February...and it's very painful. It is so sad thinking of all the what if's and I understand you on that level. I always wish I did more or talked more or saw him more. He lived overseas so while we were close, I wouldn't see him often, but we kept in touch through whatsapp....my stepmom and 2 siblings came to live with me now....and it's like every moment wr are talking about him...I still can't believe he's gone.
It's pretty awesome that you are doing all that because of your mom. She, as well as my dad, are in a better place now. May they rest in peace. Thanks for sharing.
@brookemmoore ...she was a beautiful soul I can tell thru her eyes.Know that spirit lives on sweetheart and thru you and your children "she's lives on* Happy Mother's day in heaven for her...I really feel as women when we aren't close to our mother's we learn from that.My mom's parent's died when she was just 12yrs old within 3 Month's of each other.She was never motherly or grandmotherly but.she is a good person.I learned to be very motherly to all my children I wouldn't want them to feel alone..Happy mother's day to you as well