Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

What do you think???? I know that I over reacting but me and the father of my kids are not in good terms.. I ask my mom to give the kids to him that's it. but he have her money to get stuff without telling me...she help him with getting a car after all he did to me...he not wanting my daughter and not been with my kids a full weekend.. I'm been doing everything alone.. I call him and he was that's not of your business.... I don't call his family at all how he is with my kids.. I'm about to give ...

Yesterday my boyfriend said he vomited 3 times yesterday and he been having cravings and sleeping more than usual and today he said he is having back pain is that a sign of me being pregnant?

Ladies, I'm so freaking excited and happy right now that I am UGLY crying at work !! My doctor just called me because he got my blood results back, baby is good and I'm having A BOYYYY!!! I cant believe after all I've been through I finally get my boy !!! Thank you Jesus !!! I want to surprise Tim, any ideas of how I can surprise him for when he gets home from work tonight ??? Let's hear it.

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