Feeling super guilty. I started trying to get my milk back in. I have been pumping every three hours…

Feeling super guilty. I started trying to get my milk back in. I have been pumping every three hours even through the night only for a the last day. I have also been power pumping and having the baby latch on each side and eat for 10 minutes (even though there isn't enough milk to fill him so I still have to bottle feed after). I have a horrible fissure on the left side as well that hurts so bad I can hardly stand the pain when I pump. Tonight when it hit 12:04 I still hadn't slept yet. I was so tired I just turned off my alarm and missed my 12:45 pump. It's 4:15 and I woke up and started pumping but I just want to cry because I should have been a better mom and pumped at 12:45. I just want my milk back.