I'm so down right now.

All I wanted to do was breastfeed my little boy when he was born but I was so ill and got no help from the midwives. So he ended up being bottle fed and now no matter what I try I cannot get him to feed from me. He just screams at my boobs and scratches at me then it takes us almost an hour to calm him down again.

I know it doesn't make me any less of a mother if I don't breastfeed him but it is making me feel sad.

Part of me feels that I am not getting the right bond with him because of it.