Starting TWW. Anyone else?

I had a stillborn daughter at 38 weeks this passed Nov. This is my second month ttc. (Last month we only tried for like two weeks though). My last and only pregnancy, I got pregnant the first month of ttc so I hope it's quick this time again.

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

So I keep feeling these lil sharp pains on my right side. You do get pains like that before you start your period right.? Remember I had that dark brown spotting for a few hours last month on the 22. My period suppose to start today.

Welp if it makes y’all feel better , I was hoping my own baby didn’t come out ugly because my baby daddy be looking ugly to me sometimes .

Bit of a rant

I seriously can't wait to eat something like cereal for breakfast again...lol. With this GD I have been limited to eggs every morning (and I HATE eggs). My high risk OB told me about green smoothies last week so I have had those like 4 times (much better than eggs by far!) but I still wish I could have a bowl of cereal or oatmeal or waffles (omg, I'm making myself so hungry ?). A little over 9 weeks and I will be eating all the foods I miss so much ?