I'm back where I was four years ago feeling MORE suicidal than ever!!! my whole fucking life is falling apart. people were right I fucked up my entire life. I can't trust anyone I can't do this. I need to go.

The response I got from letting my landlord know this is the second mouse I’ve had in my apartment in a couple weeks.

That last sentence really rubbed me wrong. For one, I have a clean apartment, I don’t leave food out. Two, it’s fall so mice are looking for warmth, they’re not coming into my apartment because it’s ‘dirty’. Three, I don’t believe that it’s a “first for this building”. Ugh this whole email just made me feel like she thinks I don’t clean or something.

Maybe I’m over reacting. I...

trying to move is hard I can't find an apartment😡

Science!

My friend posted this on facebook last night and said her kids were asleep within minutes. It's a song that scientists created to help people fall asleep. I was skeptical but I thought what the hay, I'll try it out. I didn't bank on Dh falling asleep, but both him and lo were asleep by minute 2. And lo slept six straight hours. ?

I'll never be apart of any family. me and my fiance are totally over. and I'm falling apart. I can't do this.