Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

This is NOT happening !!!!!!! I swear I had given up! But I'm 5 days late and I just got my BFP ???

Woke up to a soaked liner.😮

(Not discharge)🙃

I put a pad to see if it keeps soaking.

It felt like I was peeing on my self all morning😱😌

(I'm cramping real bad)

(My sides are hurting)

the hospital told me if I soak a pad its not normal..well today I stood up and felt blood I look in the pad and there's a lot...I clean up and stand up again and there's a pile of blood on the floor & I feel so nauseous.. I'm so scared & my doctor is on lunch break! I have 30 more minutes ):

Guess What.. !! "My Baby is Up Moving & Kicking" and I'm Sleepy.. But I'm Not Mad 😏😴