i live like this because i choose to. My daughter needs both parents and if I decide I can’t handle this anymore the fear of court & sharing rights comes to my mind. We live together, do whatever it is we do and that’s it. I always told myself I would not stay just for a child but I find myself doing that more and more each day. It’s a constant struggle to even feel love at t this point and I wanna work it out but it seems impossible.