I think about my ex told me that I never did any thing for him sexually. He cheated n hit me the…

I think about my ex told me that I never did any thing for him sexually. He cheated n hit me the whole 3 yrs we was together. I married my hubby n he is the total opposite....But sometimes he would say things that really shatter my self esteem.....it remind me of my past with my ex. I'm just thinking how my hubby can treat me like a Queen. He tell me ask the time how he loves me ..Then he say things that make me very hurt n sad. I love him but sometimes I see my ex in him that makes me wonder he marry me. I been a stay at home mom since we got married n I love it but I feel like my effort is not enough for him.when he say he love me I wonder why. VENTING. I be waiting if he will turn into my ex but he won't smh I'm waiting on that time he will I not enough for him