I don’t know what to do anymore. I need help from my self harming before it gets worse again but if…

I don’t know what to do anymore.

I need help from my self harming before it gets worse again but if i go back to the hospital i’ll stay there for a month or a few weeks and than they will put me in residential for 6 months to a year.

By than i’ll have Corbin and in order to see him i’ll have to earn it and it takes a lot of work i’ve heard.

What do i do?

I wanna save my life along with Corbin’s but i also wanna see him.