My 2year old and I had a bad day today 😔 *disclaimer*I don't pop/hit/woop what ever anyone would like to call it .
It was my first outing with both my children
my husband asked me are you sure you want to take them both I said yea I'm fine we are good
...... Well I was wrong we went to my friends baby shower she is pretty much the only friend that I have in VA
Antonio thew a fit the whole time even when he was playing with the other kids he was falling out on the floor flailing, crying, screeming throwing stuff, going though her presents I told her I was just going to take him home she said it's ok he's 2 he will find something to calm him please stay 😢*sigh* it was very embarrassing 😲people were looking at me and wispering. I'm trying to give him toys or his learning DVDs the only way I could calm him down was because this lady (apparently she is a professional clown) had bubbles in her purse I spent like 2 hours blowing bubbles and saw none of the baby shower. When we got to the car I expressed my disappointment and I can tell he felt bad😩. When I picked my husband up from work the only thing I could say about my day with tears rolling down my face ....

Am I a good mother 😿 I felt so bad a bout so many things I couldn't calm my son I couldn't control my emotions and I made my son feel bad
If you couldn't tell I'm the calm one i all ways look at the good and the bad I weigh my options and think about different results I like to know what to do I hate not knowing ......
I know it's just one day
I know sometimes children have these days
I have seen it happen to other moms in public
I pride myself on how happy my son is and how much he learns every day
Then why do I feel this way 😩

sorry I felt you guys would understand better then my old high school acquaintances and old co-workers on face book