Think I just need a rant without being judged.
Think I just need a rant without being judged.
I was meant to be having a baby shower tomorrow, it was a ''surprise' by my sister and Bens mam. Unfortunately my sister couldn't come so it was cancelled, i was totally fine with this.
Now. Bens mam has asked me and Ben to come up dressed nice tomorrow because she's throwing a 'surprise' shower with all of her family. I don't know them very well, I don't speak to any of them and I don't do very well in crowds of people, especially when I'm in the spotlight so to speak 😔
I told Ben this, because i literally do not want to go, and he understands, but she's spent £100+ on it, so we are going 😔
How am I meant to feel happy and act surprised or enjoy myself when my anxiety is going through the roof just thinking about it.
Noshin·
This is so hard. I think maybe remind yourself that worrying about it in this moment won't change anything and that in actuality when you're in the situation you will somehow grit your teeth and bare it. It will be hard, you may have to take many trips to the bathroom and blame it on the pregnancy just to get some space, or ask to leave early because the pregnancy made you tired etc. But you will get through it. They've set this up out of kindness so at least there's that, knowing it isn't people who are wanting to put you in an uncomfortable position x
Lauren Butcher·
@noshinxoxo yeah, its just that i have to drive 45 mins to get there, and its bens family he will be talking to around with everyone, and ill be left, its the same every time we go to his mums let alone in an event like this! X
Ingrid Herta·
Remember nothing is ever as it seems...and you might get some presents and enjoy yourself?? Remember It’s fine to be shy aswell many people are and the loud one in the room will be happy to have the attention on them. If all else fails ask them a lot of questions so they are in spotlight not you.
Lauren Butcher·
@ingrid_deridder yeah I'm a terrible person, I don't like presents, I don't like spotlight, and I hate surprises 😂 I probably going to end up not talking to anyone and looking like an idiot