The thought of doing the whole of Friday tomorrow, knowing as well that it'll be raining, is giving me such bad anxiety…

What about tomorrow is making you anxious? Being in your own?x

@hayleyf yes. Zaid today was off the charts clingy. Its okay coping with 2 when one can spend 5 mins playing by himself, but when you can't stand up without them both crying, it's overwhelming. And I'm so scared tomorrow he's going to be the same. I barely barely got through today with him like that, another day of this and I'll garuntee I'll be in tears most of it. Also when the weather is shit and we can't leave the house to pass time, that stresses me out. Feel so trapped.

@noshinxoxo, awww I feel for you. I don’t know what to suggest...is there anyone that can pop in tomorrow? If you need to message me tomorrow at any point you are more than welcome xxx

@hayleyf thank you hun I may take you up on that. I'll be honest I'm too prideful. My in laws are busy people and absorbed in their own life, the one in law who is not busy at all hasn't offered help and I dislike asking from people who don't offer. She called me today making excuses about how she has been so busy with exercising, when I never asked her to even come. I should Swallow my pride and call her but that also means admitting that I'm struggling and I haven't told any family how badly I'm struggling atm. I'm so scared of being judged as a bad mum or someone who can't handle it ygm. I dunno. Maybe I will suck it up and ask her tomorrow if I see Zaid is being too too much.

@noshinxoxo, sometimes people don’t offer because they are worried they might be interfering...please shout up and ask for help before you get even more overwhelmed. I’m sure no one would judge you as being a bad mum, I’m hoping they would just recognise you have two small babies and it’s bloody hard work! Everyone needs some support sometimes, don’t let this build up though, you are human xxx

I feel you, I have one and past couple of days he has been so clingy with his teething going on, no sleep at night and no rest in day. Hang in there and come on here every time you feel stressed x @noshinxoxo I hate it when weather's bad too, makes the day twice as bad.

Don't be scared to ask for help. Ask them over for a cuppa. Say your going crazy stuck in by yourself & could do with some company! Or even if you go out for a short time. Wellies or old shoes. Just let Zaid run off a bit of steam in the garden or somewhere nearby. Morgan gets worse the longer he's stuck inside, we both end up going crazy!

Ive just read this and read your post from this morning. There is no shame in struggling. We all go through ups and downs. No one will think you are a bad mum if you ask for help. Im not going to beat around the bush here, you clearly need help. That DOES NOT make you a bad mum. It makes you a human like the rest of us. Dont think for one second you are alone in this. Show me a mother who hasnt had her kids reduce her to tears and I will show you a liar. You have two little people who need you and its hard work, i know that more than anyone. You can do this. X

@sara-lou86 @kayteamay Honestly your support brings tears to my eyes, I know I should ask but I don't know how honestly. I've been brought up by a mother who never asked ever, and then asking in laws seems so so hard but I do get @hayleyf that they probably feel like I'm coping fine and it would be interfering to offer. It's also a struggle to know who to ask. Everyone is very very busy. 2 SILs have 2 young kids, work, and then also go to college! Let me see if I can find any help today and I will keep all you ladies in mind and swallow my dumb pride and ask.

Im always here if you need to talk x